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i don't feel like putting: reading, music, acting, yoga, caving, singing, belly dancing, Dilbert, animals, nature, or any celebrities' names, or much else either, in my "Interests." this is partly because i do not want to be found by random scary strangers who do searches looking for people with matching obsessions and then fail to take hints that they should leave the poor girl alone. it is also partly because in no way do i want to be taken as a self-appointed expert on anything besides my own opinions (except maybe critters. i know rather a lot about critters, apparently. every time i say some random fact about critters, other people always go, "really? wow, how do you know so much about critters?" ...or the like. hee.) anywho, what to tell you about me? i tend to crave stability and peace, but have a volatile temper and lots of mood swings (should we blame the Scottish heritage on this one?). my most oft-used quote is from Rodney King ("can't we all just get along??"), but i will attack and destroy the aggressors of my loved ones when necessary. (again: Scottish.) i am comfortable with mystery and the inexplicable. i love God and the earth and living things and human beings in general (although loving real, individual people - myself included - does prove harder for me to do some days.) i long to give and receive respect. i break out in gooseflesh when i see someone awakening to their purpose in life at that moment, or walking in their gifts. i have been victorious over much fear, and there remains in me much yet to be conquered; and i'm ok with the now. i have various celeb crushes, have a moral weakness where footwear is concerned, and my panties almost never match my bra. books are just about the best thing ever. and movies are next best. and i was married for over 7 years (from mid 97 to early 05) and i'm not fully healed from all that yet. and i majored in graphic design with a concentration in illustration and a minor in Spanish and i kept flunking my art history classes and i got married and got depressed and dropped out and i haven't looked back since, and if i ever do finish a degree i think it will not have anything to do with art because "having to" do it was really awful. there's hope though... one of the myriad AWESOME things my wonderful boyfriend has done for me was to build me an easle of his own design. (that's the kind of guy he is. he sees with his heart AND with his head, and applies both to the solution that's needed. he is emotionally articulate and self-aware and generous and huge on respect, and we love each other so much that i am often freaked out about SOMEthing.) and i work a pretty darn decent 9-to-6 cubicle job in a pretty darn decent environment with some really excellent people (and some real weasels, but oh well - ya can't walk around in this world without stepping on a few of those every day, they run thick!) i have friends and family - biological, and chosen, and heavenly - who are precious to me, and i recognize this as a rare and valuable situation, and am so grateful. i am a wicked and horrible person, in spurts, and sometimes it's funny and sometimes it's repulsive and sometimes both. i want to love the tropics, but i'm prone to heat stroke. (Scottish. bummed i didn't get more of the Cherokee and African traits that are back there in the family line. especially when it comes to sunburns. but anyway.) i'm just a tiny bit OCD-ified; i'm a recovering codependent; i miss my therapist but am at peace about that chapter being over... and i'm more or less the worst person EVER at keeping in touch with people who mean the world to me - this means i've grieved the loss of legions of friends, and that i fiercely miss most of my bio family members about 360 days out of every year. i think music is as close to magic as i've ever experienced. i find horses to be just about the most stunning creatures on earth. and food is awesome. ...i think that'll do, pig. that'll do.

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